Friday, May 11, 2007

Hello? Hello? Anyone out there?

I hope so.

Cause I am...

There's always been so much I've wanted to do with my life...wear Manolo Blahniks every day, write about something other than sports (which is what I spend most of my life writing about), lose weight.

On this blog, I get to do two out of three. And if I don't mind wearing the same two pair of shoes, I can shoot for that first goal too.

In all seriousness...I've been the chubby girl all my life. You know the one--the one you always wanted to sit next to in class because she'd have all the right answers. And most days, she was nice enough to share.

You called her a friend, you invited her to parties, and felt COMPLETELY comfortable letting your boyfriend talk to her....but deep inside, you always thought she was a little off...I mean, she was FAT. (Hence why you knew your boyfriend was safe with HER!)

Well guess what...I'm tired of being that girl. (Although I promise, you can still let your boyfriends/husbands/girlfriends talk to me. I may be chunky, but I'm not vicious. And I happen to be happily married myself....)

For as long as I can remember, I've been trying to lose weight. My mom has been yanking cheeseburgers out of my fingers since I was 7. By the time I was 10, I'd already tried my first diet. By 14, I was a Weight Watchers regular.

I knew how to lose weight. What I didn't know--and frankly, didn't really CARE--to know, was how to keep it from coming back. Until it hit me, right before I got married, that never in my life, had I known what it was like to be thin.

I hadn't put on a two-piece bathing suit since I was a toddler (when belly fat was cute). Tank tops...I would never wear tank tops. Maybe that seems minor, but I was born and raised in South Florida. I think it's a requirement you spend half your life unclothed down here.

So 14 months before I walked down the aisle, I joined Weight Watchers. Again. And wow oh wow, did I make it work. I lost 60 pounds. When I got married, I looked about as good as I could remember. My wedding pictures were FABULOUS.

But I came back from my honeymoon so blissfully happy I forgot to get back on my diet. And for three years, I barely thought about it or the fact the pounds were creeping back on.

Not true. I thought about it often, but while my mind worked, my body was determined not to. I convinced myself that crying on the bathroom floor after seeing an ugly number on the scale would cause the weight to magically come off.

Ha, guess not. So I half-heartedly tried the South Beach Diet. Gave Weight Watchers another crack. Got desperate and told myself pre-packaged meals from Jenny Craig were the answer. I lost a few pounds, but it wasn't the progress my body (or MIND!) needed and eventually, I realized it was going to take actual work on my part (who knew?)

So I re-joined Weight Watchers. I dusted off my sneakers and got to exercising and here I am, down 6.5 pounds in three weeks.

Sure I've still got a long way to go, but I figure with a little encouragement from you (and my mom, and my husband, and my friends and anyone else willing to offer it!), this time, I'm going to make it work.

And I promise. I'll even wear a tank top when it happens...

9 comments:

Melissa said...

<< screaming from the other side of the canyon >>

helllooooo...we're here and we're listening. :) can't wait to follow you on your journey!

aydin said...

I <3 you, ccc! Journey on!

Sarah said...

You will totally rock a tank top AND the blahniks together! Thank you for inviting me on your journey :)

Andrea said...

We'll be here reading ;)

Yvette said...

You're hot....even without the tank top!!! LOVE YOU!!!! Congrats on starting this blog...I knew it would be awesome!!!

WeightWatchnWoman said...

Nice loss....I know how you feel about being overweight. Things will change, just stick with it :)

Maitee said...

I'm here, I'm here! Great job so far. Can't wait to take this journey with you and learn a few tips along the way.

Lourdes said...

good luck on your journey ccc - i'll be reading!!

Kelly said...

love the blog. i'm in your corner!